The first step to Awakening and Kundalini Activation is . . . To Know YOUR Psychology. Why? To better understand other people and navigate your inner world of mirrors . . . The Labyrinth. Self Realization may surely follow the realization of Self Delusion . . . If the student is ready.
Darken your room, shut the door, empty your mind. Yet you are still in great company – the Numen and your Genius with all their media, and your host of elementals and ghosts of your dead loves — are there! They need no light by which to see, no words to speak, no motive to enact except through your own purely formed desire.
― Austin Osman Spare, The Logomachy of Zos
Delusions & Illusions
It is vitally important to understand the nature of delusions and illusions before engaging on a path of inner work. This is because humans are highly susceptible to hallucination and trance. As story-telling animals (creatures who create major religions around stories of invisible people), the natural inclination is to project one’s subjective certainties onto the external world, rather than locate them in and around the body.
A simple example can be found with dogs and cats. Have you ever noticed their reaction when an inanimate object, such as a ball, starts rolling near the animal and they look at it as if it has agency (a will of its own)? Or even when their tails happen to swipe the curtain and they look at the ruffling tapestry as having ruffled itself? Well, there you go. This is exactly what human primates do with their Bio-Imagination (my term for the full body subjective experience), they project the forms of their imagination into an invisible realm and give it agency. They also interpret noises and odd circumstances in their environment as the concoction of invisible forces.
Now, the inner language of the body will produce imagery, texture, sounds and all manner of time-based scenarios in an effort to “tune” itself psycho-emotionally. Another word for this is Kundalini energy. Experiences range from fluid sensations to the “bearing of tension” in and around the body (imagine a worm crawling throughout your skull, a cold wind blowing through your legs or bearing the tension-feeling of physically exploding). These sensations can manifest themselves as anything imaginable . . . and surprisingly potent.
On the other side, psycho-emotional energy will yield the fruits of its metamorphosis through experiences of profound bliss, meaningful hallucinations, seemingly miraculous experiences (way above normal human perceptions), healing, an extended feeling of oneself around the body (15 ft in my case) similar to wading in water, other people in the environment being effected psychologically and emotionally, nature opening up to a mystical enchanting realm, penetrating experiences of synchronicity and objects coming alive for interaction. All these and much more are explained in my book “unSpiritual: A Spiritual Journey”.
The tendency to retreat into fantasy in order to resolve inner and outer conflicts. In other words, humans create realities in their Bio-Imagination to escape the world of mortals. Allowing something to be real that really isn’t reduces the tension of an uncontrollable situation.
As children, in the land of giants (parents), our dependency and vulnerability invokes our story-telling sorcery. Humans have the longest childhoods in the animal kingdom and this is why the land of giants is so significant for inner work/awakening. It is also why I say we have an epidemic of adult children in our world, evidenced by, the overwhelming (but under reported) history of child abuse and its lasting effects. This is not limited to overt abuse but the transmission of the parent’s shadow (subconscious) to the child, sorcerer/ess, magician—Imaginarian™.
Daydreams and night-dreams become the fluid palette for fantasy from which the inner child must awaken from and re-own as it grows into a giant. If not, the subconscious pattern is past on to future generations, and thus, you have the makings of social engineering.
A hallucination is a vivid sensory perception that does not align with the natural world. For instance, one ‘sees’ a tree look at them, and a conversation ensues. Even though the experience has qualities of objective reality, it is no more real “in the natural world” than the walls turning liquid are on an acid trip. Hallucinations are vivid, substantial, and are perceived to be located in external objective space. However, if one can understand the realm of the subjective world and differentiate it from the realm of the nature world (objective world), then true magick can flower within one’s Bio-Imagination.
One way to understand this phenomenon is lucid dreaming. Dreams can be experienced in ‘observer mode’ or full blown ‘dream hallucination’ (Hypnagogia – hallucinations that occur as one is falling asleep or waking up). When we lucid dream, we are awake within the dream construct experiencing the subjective reality-scape. Likewise, when one realizes the nature of the dream-state in the daytime, lucid subjective experiences can not only be tolerated but embraced as the glorious language of the inner world. In this case, the objective world IS NOT confused with the subjective world but BOTH are embraced and converge into a fluid stream of consciousness.
The challenge of taking the inner plunge is dealing with our biography down into the land of giants. This is the area that contains the psycho-emotional energy that many people believe comes from other dimensions. The way up is down, the way out is through, the way to self realization (flowering) is through the child within—in through the out door.
Hallucinations can occur with all of the senses because the body creates a subjective self or “spirit, soul” as some call it. This inner self lives within a virtual world that mimics the external environment or natural world. This time-based self evolved to maintain and increase our chances for survival and work as a laboratory for our creations. We could simulate scenarios before actually doing them.
- Visual – concerned with tasting or the sense of sight
- Auditory – concerned with the sense of hearing
- Olfactory – concerned with the sense of smell
- Gustatory – concerned with tasting or the sense of taste
- Tactile – concerned with tasting or the sense of touch
- Proprioceptive – concerned with the position and movement of the body
- Equilibrioception – concerning the senses related to balance
- Nociceptive – relating to the pain sensation arising from the stimulation of nerve cells
- Thermoceptive – the sense by which an organism perceives temperatures
- Chronoceptive – concerning the sense perception of time
A false awakening is a vivid and convincing dream about awakening from sleep, while the dreamer in reality continues to sleep. After a false awakening, subjects often dream they are performing daily morning rituals such as cooking, cleaning and eating. False awakenings, namely those in which one dreams that one has awoken from sleep that featured dreams, take on aspects of a double dream or a dream within a dream. This is the same experience as when someone believes they are enlightened or awakened from their biographical dream-state. They believe they are awakened or enlightened but are living in a dream within a dream. The great equalizer (Zen stick) is the objective world of relationships, objects and experiences. Critical thinking is the key in this area.
A delusion is a belief that is held with strong conviction despite superior evidence in the natural world to the contrary. Delusions are distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information, confabulation, dogma, illusion, or other effects of perception. Spiritual examples would include:
- Believing your child is protected by invisible forces while playing near a high traffic area.
- Having a conviction that someone is evil because they have an apposing view regarding your faith.
- Believing that sounds in your house are the literal cause of your aunt Emma or an alien from outer space.
- Believing that an alien or entity from another dimension is communicating new scientific information to the world when in fact nothing is being communicated that has not already been published.
- Schizophrenia – a mental disorder characterized by abnormal social behavior and failure to understand what is real. Common symptoms include false beliefs, unclear or confused thinking, hearing voices that others do not hear, reduced social engagement and emotional expression, and a lack of motivation. People with schizophrenia often have additional mental-health problems such as anxiety disorders, major depressive illness, or substance-use disorders. Symptoms typically come on gradually, begin in young adulthood, and last a long time.
- Paraphrenia – paranoid delusions – a mental disorder characterized by an organized system of paranoid delusions with or without hallucinations (the positive symptoms of schizophrenia) without deterioration of intellect or personality (its negative symptom)
- Pipolar disorder – also known as manic depression, is a mental disorder that causes periods of depression and periods of elevated mood. The elevated mood is significant and is known as mania or hypomania, depending on its severity, or whether symptoms of psychosis are present. During mania, an individual behaves or feels abnormally energetic, happy, or irritable. Individuals often make poorly thought out decisions with little regard to the consequences. The need for sleep is usually reduced during manic phases. During periods of depression, there may be crying, a negative outlook on life, and poor eye contact with others. The risk of suicide among those with the illness is high at greater than 6 percent over 20 years, while self-harm occurs in 30–40 percent. Other mental health issues such as anxiety disorders and substance use disorder are commonly associated.
- Psychotic depression – also known as depressive psychosis, is a major depressive episode that is accompanied by psychotic symptoms.
Although non-specific concepts of madness have been around for several thousand years, the psychiatrist and philosopher Karl Jaspers was the first to define the three main criteria for a belief to be considered delusional in his 1913 book General Psychopathology. These criteria are:
- Certainty (held with absolute conviction)
- Incorrigibility (not changeable by compelling counterargument or proof to the contrary)
- Impossibility or falsity of content (implausible, bizarre, or patently untrue)
Furthermore, when a false belief involves a value judgment, it is only considered a delusion if it is so extreme that it cannot be, or never can be proven true. For example: a man claiming that he flew into the sun and flew back home. This would be considered a delusion, unless he were speaking figuratively, or if the belief had a cultural or religious source. [referenced source]
An illusion is a distortion of the senses, revealing how the brain normally organizes and interprets sensory stimulation. Though illusions distort reality, they are generally shared by most people. Illusions may occur with any of the human senses, but visual illusions (optical illusions) are the best-known and understood. The emphasis on visual illusions occurs because vision often dominates the other senses.
The term illusion refers to a specific form of sensory distortion. Unlike a hallucination, which is a distortion in the absence of a stimulus, an illusion describes a misinterpretation of a true sensation. For example, hearing voices regardless of the environment would be a hallucination, whereas hearing voices in the sound of running water (or other auditory source) would be an illusion.
Mimes are known for a repertoire of illusions that are created by physical means. The mime artist creates an illusion of acting upon or being acted upon by an unseen object. These illusions exploit the audience’s assumptions about the physical world. Well-known examples include “walls”, “climbing stairs”, “leaning”, “descending ladders”, and “pulling and pushing”. [referenced source]
Denial is a refusal to accept external reality because it is too threatening; arguing against an anxiety provoking stimuli by stating it doesn’t exist; resolution of emotional conflict and reduce anxiety by refusing to perceive or consciously acknowledge the more unpleasant aspects of external reality.
A gross reshaping of external reality to meet internal needs.
Grossly frank delusions about external reality, usually of a persecutor nature. This is used in psych warfare where the target is told a fantasy such as “the sun is actually blue” and despite the logical reaction (presentation of facts), the enforcer forces the delusion until the target caves in subjectively (succumbs to a feeling of overwhelming confusion) and starts to question their own reality. The thought “maybe the sun really is blue” spawns and the programming sets in.
This is exactly what happens to children in the land of giants. The parents force their subconscious realities upon the tender curious heart of the young Imaginarian. In spite of the child’s protest of crying and the declaration of “No” (boundaries, limits). . . the child is forced into the reality of their giants.
The inner path of awakening is a labyrinth full of mirrors. it is the land that Hollywood movies are made from. Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz and Alice in Wonderland represent our felt sense or inner child (innocence) in the subjective landscape. Knowing how to navigate this inner world will save the seeker from its dangers. Remember this . . . all phenomenon in our inner world are specific to our inner thumbprint. In other words, my devils aren’t your devils . . . so be careful as you proceed because things aren’t always as they seem . . . travel well my friend.
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